Insanity Blog

Haha, lame right?

Kinda. I was hoping that it would be better than AFF, and it is to an extent. I don’t have the itching feeling that I will be pulverized by having a different opinion than someone else (and who honestly would have a hissy fit for something someone said on the internet? Jesus.). But there is still the little bit of the same old whining. Yes, the same ol’ “Has no friends, how I get them?”. Those always make me laugh, especialy when they are found on autistic related forums. Why in the world wou you ask a bunch of autistics how to make friends? xD

Well, we will see how things go on that website, maybe I won’t fill so out of place there.

Or maybe I should just ignore the over 18yo rule and go to I2.

Just for those who really care, I thought I would give you an update! What fun!

I am finally done with the class part of my drivers ed, and now I have so much more summer free time! And I really have to get some new summer cloths, these black shirts are driving me mad. It gets way to hot way to quick when that black fabric absorbs that heat.

Now that I am done with the class portion of my drivers ed, I get to do my ranges. I have one range date scheduled so far. Luckily, I don’t feel that nervous, I just hope I get it done good. I don’t want to wait forever to get my drivers license. I’m already 17, I should have had mine last year.

Anyway. I am also going to be applying for a part time job this summer. Maybe a barns & nobel in the cafe or music section, or maybe smiths. Or something. I want some money

I think thats it for my quick update. It’s 2:25 AM, so I can’t think of anything else to type. I need to get to bed.

Yes! Now I will be happy to blog more!

During my firefox3gasm, I found an awesome addon amongst all the other lame ones I was downloading. It is called ScribeFire, and it is sweet. It allows me to write blog post without having to go through a bunch of links and page loads. I simply click the ScribeFire icon in the bottom right corner of firefox, write my blog post, and then press “Publish to ‘Insanity Blog’”.

I swear to god, you will be seeing more of my post (if you even look at my blog, hahaha)

https://addons.mozilla.org/en-US/firefox/addon/1730
http://www.scribefire.com/help/getting-started/

Well, hello again viewers (if you are still viewing the blog xD). I have been busy doing… stuff. Not exactly important stuff, but hey, its more fun then updating a blog.

Spring fever has hit, and harder than it ever has before. I never had this urging feeling to go out, party, have fun, do stupid teenage shit, maybe get a date, and not have to give a shit. (Teen angst ftw!)

And along with that, I’ve never felt this burning need to be unselfconscious, to be free of any self judgment. It isn’t until now that I have seen how harsh I am to myself, to a point where, at least in my opinion, is unhealthy.

These feelings and emotions have never been so strong in a LONG time. And the weird thing is, all of this came from no where. No event knowledgeable by me triggered these feelings. I could care less where it actualy came from, I’m more worried about working with these feelings and thoughts.

Maybe I should go ahead and listen to them. Its fucking time to have some fucking fun.

 As long as I have loved folk music (folk > country, for the record), I have known Ritsuki “Rikki” Nakano. She is an amazing folk artist and vocalist from Japan. Must I say more?

In this low traffic web blog, I get about ten visitors a day. Out of those ten, at least one of you can comment

I don’t think it’s that hard to be a kiss ass for one moment and comment one of my entries, like a good pal

Pweese ^_^

P.S.: This post was meant to be towards a few of my friends that I KNOW are visiting this blog. The other random blog viewers may comment if you want, but I am not forcing you… On the other hand *holds medieval sword at your neck* O_O

I am happy I got over this band along time ago..

They are remaking one of their very old songs “Perfect Insanity”, one of their better works. Before “The Sickness”.

I got to hear a preview of it, and I fear the worst.

And I am gonna say this straight up: John Moyer is just a fucking tool compared to Fuzz. Fuzz is levels better than John on band communication. John will never compare to the skill Fuzz has, and the remake of “Perfect Insanity” will prove it.

And no, I don’t think John is the only problem. David, as good of a vocalist he is, needs to get his egotistical head out of his ass. It should be the band’s band, not your band.

Dan is an alright guitarist, and Disturbed certainly does not show his skill. But hey, what can you expect from a nu-metal band?

Mike has always been good at drums, but he sucks at making beats to fit all aspects of the song. You can tell the drums were made to just fit Dan, or just to keep a constant beat of the song without complimenting any aspect of the song.

Looking back, I can’t believe a gave this band as much praise as I did.

To any die hard disturbed fan out there– actualy — to any die hard nu-metal fan out there: There is better music, with much better communication and skill. Listen to real fucking metal, not bull shit that claims to be so.

And I have decided to post:

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kthx bai

Its funny how I have a hard time telling the difference between some one instigating me, and some one trying to help me.

And that thought, my friends, changed the whole way I perceived this day.

Today, that I once thought was a bad day, has now became a good day.

And I didn’t have to go back in time. Fuck yeah

How could I have been so fucking blind?

Some of you may have already read my last entry. And like I said in the Post script, I don’t disagree with anything I have said, so I have no means of taking back what I said.

In this entry I plan on clarifying and expanding what I said before, like I said I would in the p.s.s.

From my last entry- “A ‘way of life’ is something that you choose to do and proceed with it, not something you are given. Whether what you are given is ‘a gift’ or ‘a curse’ matters not with the way you choose to live your life.”

Your way of life is your own course of conduct. There is absolutely no way you can be outwardly forced to make certain choices in your life. You make the final decisions, and nothing that you have ever been given can change that. Decisions can not, as far as I know, be influenced on you. Only the choices can. When it comes down to it, YOU make the decisions that move you forward in life.

From my last entry- “Having HFA, LFA, PDD-NOS, Asperger’s Syndrome, Bipolar disorder, ADD, ADHD, and all the others is what you are going to live your fucking life WITH, not something you are going to live your life AS.“

I want to clarify that I am not aiming this to one particular group of people, I am aiming it to everyone. This is for the ND’s, the ‘curbies’, the ‘mercury malitia’, the parents of autistics, the autistics themselves, and even the people that have nothing to do with autism and the like. Everyone needs this friendly reminder that they have their own way of life, no matter how you look at it.

I will now allow you guys to give your own opinions on this. I am not sure if I have opened this entry enough for propper discussion, but I would still like some different sides of the story, or different opinions, or some sort of comment from this.

- Andrew M.