I feel like a fucking loser October 12, 2007
Posted by Andrew in Rants and Complaints, School.Tags: asperger's, aspie, school work
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After spending all of last week (and part of this week) to get my Environmental Issues research paper done, it turns out that I have been saving it in a temporary folder. It turns out that I have DELETED the research paper that I spent alot of time on, and got three pages done with information that was HARD to get. I even made a graph for the fucking paper. But now it is all gone. I am now failing my fucking class, and I am in for shit with my mom when she finds out what my fucking grade is. So now I feel like a piece of shit, just as I did last year.
The thing that is so bad about it is that when I felt like a loser last year, I didn’t feel like getting anything done. It ruined all of my grades (thank god I barley passed a few, but my sophomore year still fucked up my road to graduation) and it really didn’t help with my low self esteem. I feel like history is going to repeat it’s fucking self.
The same thing happens to me every now and then. It’s really not a good feeling. Not at all.
Hi,
Same thing happened to me at uni years ago. I’m a computer person so I don’t lose my work. Instead, I gave it to the student council for binding and the stupid people hole punched it all down the wrong side. It was 300 pages.
I had to drive home and spend hours (in those days it took hours to print) reprinting the whole thing and then drive back. The drive home was looney – I must have been pretty wound up (driving aggressively) because I remember all the traffic opening for me (on a highway) like it does for an ambulance.
Anyway, looking back, I got wound up for nothing. My school and uni qualifications don’t really matter that much. It’s how you go at work that matters.