Just a small little note… February 12, 2008
Posted by Andrew in Rants and Complaints, aspie, neurodiversity.Tags: ADD, ADHD, asperger's, aspie, autism, bipolar, fuck you, neurodiversity, PDD, PDD-NOS, rant
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A “way of life” is something that you choose to do and proceed with it, not something you are given. Whether what you are given is ‘a gift’ or ‘a curse’ matters not with the way you choose to live your life.
Having HFA, LFA, PDD-NOS, Asperger’s Syndrome, Bipolar disorder, ADD, ADHD, and all the others is what you are going to live your fucking life WITH, not something you are going to live your life AS.
The aspie way of life should not be celebrated because it doesn’t exist. There are no guidelines or definite rules that say that every aspie has the same way of doing shit.
Fuck.
I feel like rioting.
-Andrew Manning
P.S.: Sorry, I kinda had to vent. I want to clarify though, that I don’t disagree with anything I said. I also want to add, that even though you shouldn’t celebrate an aspie way of life you can still “celebrate” aspects of it. I won’t exactly be joining you on that though, I have better stuff to do.
P.S.S.: I might post another entry later to expand on what was said here.
Big Words Scare Me February 11, 2008
Posted by Andrew in Epic Entries, Rants and Complaints.Tags: aspie, dyslexia, venting
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Gah! o_____o
I can’t read a word with over 6-8 characters without getting confused or having to read it over again. I hate it when I look at words and they look like a mess of letters. Sometimes its so bad that I have to read word for word, and not understand what the hell the sentence was talking about. Or sometimes I read a big word, and mistake it for another word. Dyslexia? I am not sure, but I am sure as hell that translation does not equal tarnisilation! and according to my spell check, tarnisilation isn’t even a real word ;_;.
Sad
I have to get to bed…
Night!
Andrew Manning
Screw My Neurodiversity December 16, 2007
Posted by Andrew in Human Nature, Rants and Complaints, neurodiversity.Tags: asperger's, aspie, fuck it, neurodiversity
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My mind just loves to get in the way of what I used find extravagantly good, and then make it seem like shit.
I have convinced myself that Neurodiversity contradicts itself, on the grounds of what it stands for and what it does. The Neurodiverse say they accept any type of people, yet they can breath down a Neurotypical’s neck for not having the same beliefs they do. Doesn’t having a different opinion make you a person?
I know neurodiversity won’t last.
But then again, who am I to say whats right and whats wrong, or what last or what doesn’t. How is anyone else entitled to that?
Fuck it.
Anyone up for a riot?
I am a little sick of people right now November 4, 2007
Posted by Andrew in Rants and Complaints, asperger's, aspie.Tags: andrew manning, asperger's, foresam, idiot, john best, people
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It really bothers me how much people get so obsessed with proving someone wrong, instead of proving themselves right. What bothers me more, is how much people get so obsessed with coming up with complete bull shit to defend their ideas. Why don’t you people present your evidence or give people some sort of reference to the evidence, instead of telling others that they are “fucking retarded cunts”/bigots/nitwits if we don’t agree with you? Don’t you realize that you are making people think exactly the opposite of what you want them to think about you/your ideas/your beliefs?
I see this pattern allot when I look at conspiracy theories on youtube. I recent wrote a comment on a 9/11 conspiracy theory video about how their evidence seemed like bullshit, and I asked from some reference to the validity of the evidence. I was bashed and flamed by ten different people within a thirty minute period. I didn’t get what I asked for. Instead I got a few comments on how big of a “fucking retarded cunt” I was.
I am happy that some people know how to defend their ideas without attacking everyone that disagrees. But most of those people top their “weaker” enemies with sugar by talking to them nicely, while trying to get them to think about something differently. I have recently read something, written by John Best, that was posted as a comment on my older blog. It was posted in August (around the time I ditched that blog), but I just recently read it now. He tried to nicely talk me into thinking that the group of people I talk with (Neurodiversity people, as seen on many Aspie owned internet forums) actually originated from drug companies that “poisoned” children and gave them autism, and that Neurodiversity is just propaganda to get people not to cure autism. Here is the entire message:
Andrew,
Nice to meet you. I think you should ask yourself if anyone from Neurodiversity has ever helped any autistic person with anything?
You see Andrew, Neurodiversity is an arm of Quackbusters, which is an arm of the Pharmaceutical industry. They are some very intelligent but evil people who prey on young autistics to rally behind there idiocy of refusing to help anyone with autism obtain the cures that are available. They work on your psyche to convince you that it is a good idea to take pride in your affliction rather than cure it. If you pay close attention to my blog, you will understand how this helps the drug companies who poisoned you and couldn’t care less what happens to you.
I am an ex military officer with a Master’s degree and I am an expert in propaganda. Neurodiversity is drug company propaganda cleverly disguised as a movement to benefit autistic people. They go after young people who are at a vulnerable age, suffering from diminished mental capacity and easily led to become a part of something where they feel they will fit in.
The reason they are doing this Andrew, is strictly business. The drug companies stand to lose every dime they have. Many of the higher echelon people also will face long prison sentences.
I don’t mind if you call me names. I’m on your side. I hope for you and every autistic person to enjoy their lives the way they were born, normal, not autistic. I hope you investigate this thoroughly so you understand who your real enemies are.
I know who my fucking enemies are, you don’t need to tell me how to “understand” who my real ones are. And for the record, I am not fucking normal and I never was. Even if I didn’t have Asperger’s Syndrome (or any autism or other disability), I wouldn’t be normal. And one more thing. You alway unrealistically use the term “normal” when referring to humans. No one is as normal as you think they are, John Best. And when you realize that, you’ll wont hear me say shit about you anymore.
I don’t think I am done bitching, but thats it for now.
I am sure I will come up with something else to bitch about
- Andrew Manning
P.S. : One more thing. I forgot to acknowledge that John Best, in his post to me, said that I had “diminished” mental capacity. I just have to say that John Best is one more fucking person to prove wrong.
I htae spllcehck October 22, 2007
Posted by Andrew in Epic Entries, Rants and Complaints.Tags: aspie, epic, spell check, spelling
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You konw, it mkeas me mad wehn a cmotuper tlels you taht you are se[plling smteohing wrng. It mkes me feel lkie a fuxing ilitlretae dmuabss that cna’t aoumnt to anthiyng beaucse I selpl bad.
One of these mother fucking days I am going punch the mother fucker that made the mother fucking spell check program.
Because he deserves it.
kthxbai
Anrdewa M
I feel like a fucking loser October 12, 2007
Posted by Andrew in Rants and Complaints, School.Tags: asperger's, aspie, school work
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After spending all of last week (and part of this week) to get my Environmental Issues research paper done, it turns out that I have been saving it in a temporary folder. It turns out that I have DELETED the research paper that I spent alot of time on, and got three pages done with information that was HARD to get. I even made a graph for the fucking paper. But now it is all gone. I am now failing my fucking class, and I am in for shit with my mom when she finds out what my fucking grade is. So now I feel like a piece of shit, just as I did last year.
The thing that is so bad about it is that when I felt like a loser last year, I didn’t feel like getting anything done. It ruined all of my grades (thank god I barley passed a few, but my sophomore year still fucked up my road to graduation) and it really didn’t help with my low self esteem. I feel like history is going to repeat it’s fucking self.
Do you know what I hate? September 16, 2007
Posted by Andrew in Rants and Complaints.Tags: homework, vacation, vacations
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Unexpected Vacations.
On my way home from school on Friday, my mom told me we were going up to our condo up in park city and then hang out with Aunt Becky. I thought this was going to be a four – five hour thing, so I went along with the plan. But then the day we we headed up to park city I realized then it was going to be an over night vacation. I love vacations, but they kind of put you behind on school if you have homework. I am back from vacation now trying to get my homework done, while doing my daily rounds on the internet.
I guess there won’t be playing on battle.net today.
We’ll see once midnight comes around 
-Andrew M
Being Sick Sucks September 11, 2007
Posted by Andrew in Rants and Complaints.2 comments
Yeah, it is not fun. It grants you a day away from school, but its not worth it when you have to go to the bathroom every thirty minutes. And on top of that, I feel like throwing up. And I hate throwing up 
. And no one try to convince me that it is better out than in. For me its better in than FEELING it coming out.
And for more news: My computer is fuxd (that is cool speak for fucked) up. And now I will explain the story. While I was at school, my mom had her friend try to set up a wireless connection to our router (because she didn’t want a long black ethernet cord running across the floor). My mom’s friend installed a wireless card, and I guess it went shity from there. I came home and my mom said that the log in screen was weird, and I knew (even though I didn’t know exactly what was going on) that some one was messing with my computer while I was at school. I bet that this wouldn’t have happened if I had been there, because no one at that house knows about my computer more than I do. So now, I don’t know what the fuck is wrong with it and it is fuxd beyond repair by me.
This may be the first time I have to call Geek Squad.
Ha, you wished I was that desprate.
-Andrew M.
My likes that I dislike, and vis versa September 9, 2007
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No one will lie about this: everyone likes something that they really hate, and vis versa. Don’t deny it.
Recently, I am having a dilemma over a band that I like and dislike. It is about their newest song, Keep Me Away From Me, that they released. The reasons why I like it are: the strong voice and the potential the guitars have. The reasons I dislike it are: the format of the song that matches every nu-metal band’s songs, the fact that it sounds like a normal everyday mainstream rock song, and the lyrics. I have to listen to that song over and over again, but I want to fucking hate the fucking song. Its been bothering the fucking shitnits out of me. Its a pointless power struggle tug of war in my mind.
The only solution to this problem, is to like the song. My hateness for it apparently can’t win over the likeness for it. So I must end the power struggle and murder the hate.
So that ends one of the problems. But there are millions of these like/dislike problems in my head. But I can’t beat down the hate in every one of those problems. It is totally pointless to like everything isn’t it? But then I can’t kill the likeness either, because hating everything is stupid. Hell, there is a same type of power struggle in this damn paragraph. Its a god damn vicious, psychotic, demented circle.
When does it end?
Thats a dumb question, circles don’t end.
- Andrew M
