Just a small little note… February 12, 2008
Posted by Andrew in Rants and Complaints, aspie, neurodiversity.Tags: ADD, ADHD, asperger's, aspie, autism, bipolar, fuck you, neurodiversity, PDD, PDD-NOS, rant
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A “way of life” is something that you choose to do and proceed with it, not something you are given. Whether what you are given is ‘a gift’ or ‘a curse’ matters not with the way you choose to live your life.
Having HFA, LFA, PDD-NOS, Asperger’s Syndrome, Bipolar disorder, ADD, ADHD, and all the others is what you are going to live your fucking life WITH, not something you are going to live your life AS.
The aspie way of life should not be celebrated because it doesn’t exist. There are no guidelines or definite rules that say that every aspie has the same way of doing shit.
Fuck.
I feel like rioting.
-Andrew Manning
P.S.: Sorry, I kinda had to vent. I want to clarify though, that I don’t disagree with anything I said. I also want to add, that even though you shouldn’t celebrate an aspie way of life you can still “celebrate” aspects of it. I won’t exactly be joining you on that though, I have better stuff to do.
P.S.S.: I might post another entry later to expand on what was said here.
Big Words Scare Me February 11, 2008
Posted by Andrew in Epic Entries, Rants and Complaints.Tags: aspie, dyslexia, venting
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Gah! o_____o
I can’t read a word with over 6-8 characters without getting confused or having to read it over again. I hate it when I look at words and they look like a mess of letters. Sometimes its so bad that I have to read word for word, and not understand what the hell the sentence was talking about. Or sometimes I read a big word, and mistake it for another word. Dyslexia? I am not sure, but I am sure as hell that translation does not equal tarnisilation! and according to my spell check, tarnisilation isn’t even a real word ;_;.
Sad
I have to get to bed…
Night!
Andrew Manning
A New Fricken Day February 1, 2008
Posted by Andrew in Epic Entries, Human Nature.Tags: change, Human Nature, inspiration, life
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A lot of has happened since I have last blogged. Allot. So much that I have decided to do something about my life, because right now I am dissatisfied with where I have taken it so far. It is time for a change, a big change. Alrighty then, tomorrow is a new day. And I expect it to be a bright new day to start with. I feel the need to start getting my shit together, because I expect to slowly rot like an old vegetable if I don’t. So in that case, I declare myself clean as soon as tomorrow starts.
A few beginning notes for myself:
- Pain is pain, that’s all it is. Pain will not, and con not, stop you. Only giving in can. The pain you once had is none existence as of now.
- Breath in every single high point of your days, and solve your low points of the day.
- Using a “mask” is weak if there is no good reason. In fact, there is no good reason to wear a mask and hide who you really are.
- Dealing with problems does not mean ignoring them, or running away from them. Do your best to solve them as quickly as they come, so you will no longer have to be hindered by them.
- DO NOT stop working for your dreams. If you do, you may never even come close to them, and you may never have another shot at them.
- Who cares what other people think your limits are. You know more than they do about yourself. Only you know what your real limits are, and you are the only one who can learn how to expand them.
- Listen to (and question) those who know, ignore those who don’t. There will be people with good advice for you, and there will be people with bad advice. If some one tries to give you advice, and they obviously know nothing about you, they are a waste of your time. If you receive advice from some one you know, keep it close to you. However, still question it. Even good advice can be bad advice
- You will always make mistakes. And you can usually learn from them. If you get fooled, take note on how it happened. That way you know the signs next time.
Last but not least:
·You are strong, though you have weaknesses
·But you can limit them
· You can always learn the right thing to do in any situation
·The best inspiration comes from within you. It is you who makes you all you can be.
Screw My Neurodiversity December 16, 2007
Posted by Andrew in Human Nature, Rants and Complaints, neurodiversity.Tags: asperger's, aspie, fuck it, neurodiversity
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My mind just loves to get in the way of what I used find extravagantly good, and then make it seem like shit.
I have convinced myself that Neurodiversity contradicts itself, on the grounds of what it stands for and what it does. The Neurodiverse say they accept any type of people, yet they can breath down a Neurotypical’s neck for not having the same beliefs they do. Doesn’t having a different opinion make you a person?
I know neurodiversity won’t last.
But then again, who am I to say whats right and whats wrong, or what last or what doesn’t. How is anyone else entitled to that?
Fuck it.
Anyone up for a riot?
I am a little sick of people right now November 4, 2007
Posted by Andrew in Rants and Complaints, asperger's, aspie.Tags: andrew manning, asperger's, foresam, idiot, john best, people
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It really bothers me how much people get so obsessed with proving someone wrong, instead of proving themselves right. What bothers me more, is how much people get so obsessed with coming up with complete bull shit to defend their ideas. Why don’t you people present your evidence or give people some sort of reference to the evidence, instead of telling others that they are “fucking retarded cunts”/bigots/nitwits if we don’t agree with you? Don’t you realize that you are making people think exactly the opposite of what you want them to think about you/your ideas/your beliefs?
I see this pattern allot when I look at conspiracy theories on youtube. I recent wrote a comment on a 9/11 conspiracy theory video about how their evidence seemed like bullshit, and I asked from some reference to the validity of the evidence. I was bashed and flamed by ten different people within a thirty minute period. I didn’t get what I asked for. Instead I got a few comments on how big of a “fucking retarded cunt” I was.
I am happy that some people know how to defend their ideas without attacking everyone that disagrees. But most of those people top their “weaker” enemies with sugar by talking to them nicely, while trying to get them to think about something differently. I have recently read something, written by John Best, that was posted as a comment on my older blog. It was posted in August (around the time I ditched that blog), but I just recently read it now. He tried to nicely talk me into thinking that the group of people I talk with (Neurodiversity people, as seen on many Aspie owned internet forums) actually originated from drug companies that “poisoned” children and gave them autism, and that Neurodiversity is just propaganda to get people not to cure autism. Here is the entire message:
Andrew,
Nice to meet you. I think you should ask yourself if anyone from Neurodiversity has ever helped any autistic person with anything?
You see Andrew, Neurodiversity is an arm of Quackbusters, which is an arm of the Pharmaceutical industry. They are some very intelligent but evil people who prey on young autistics to rally behind there idiocy of refusing to help anyone with autism obtain the cures that are available. They work on your psyche to convince you that it is a good idea to take pride in your affliction rather than cure it. If you pay close attention to my blog, you will understand how this helps the drug companies who poisoned you and couldn’t care less what happens to you.
I am an ex military officer with a Master’s degree and I am an expert in propaganda. Neurodiversity is drug company propaganda cleverly disguised as a movement to benefit autistic people. They go after young people who are at a vulnerable age, suffering from diminished mental capacity and easily led to become a part of something where they feel they will fit in.
The reason they are doing this Andrew, is strictly business. The drug companies stand to lose every dime they have. Many of the higher echelon people also will face long prison sentences.
I don’t mind if you call me names. I’m on your side. I hope for you and every autistic person to enjoy their lives the way they were born, normal, not autistic. I hope you investigate this thoroughly so you understand who your real enemies are.
I know who my fucking enemies are, you don’t need to tell me how to “understand” who my real ones are. And for the record, I am not fucking normal and I never was. Even if I didn’t have Asperger’s Syndrome (or any autism or other disability), I wouldn’t be normal. And one more thing. You alway unrealistically use the term “normal” when referring to humans. No one is as normal as you think they are, John Best. And when you realize that, you’ll wont hear me say shit about you anymore.
I don’t think I am done bitching, but thats it for now.
I am sure I will come up with something else to bitch about
- Andrew Manning
P.S. : One more thing. I forgot to acknowledge that John Best, in his post to me, said that I had “diminished” mental capacity. I just have to say that John Best is one more fucking person to prove wrong.
I htae spllcehck October 22, 2007
Posted by Andrew in Epic Entries, Rants and Complaints.Tags: aspie, epic, spell check, spelling
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You konw, it mkeas me mad wehn a cmotuper tlels you taht you are se[plling smteohing wrng. It mkes me feel lkie a fuxing ilitlretae dmuabss that cna’t aoumnt to anthiyng beaucse I selpl bad.
One of these mother fucking days I am going punch the mother fucker that made the mother fucking spell check program.
Because he deserves it.
kthxbai
Anrdewa M
I feel like a fucking loser October 12, 2007
Posted by Andrew in Rants and Complaints, School.Tags: asperger's, aspie, school work
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After spending all of last week (and part of this week) to get my Environmental Issues research paper done, it turns out that I have been saving it in a temporary folder. It turns out that I have DELETED the research paper that I spent alot of time on, and got three pages done with information that was HARD to get. I even made a graph for the fucking paper. But now it is all gone. I am now failing my fucking class, and I am in for shit with my mom when she finds out what my fucking grade is. So now I feel like a piece of shit, just as I did last year.
The thing that is so bad about it is that when I felt like a loser last year, I didn’t feel like getting anything done. It ruined all of my grades (thank god I barley passed a few, but my sophomore year still fucked up my road to graduation) and it really didn’t help with my low self esteem. I feel like history is going to repeat it’s fucking self.
Well, I guess its official September 25, 2007
Posted by Andrew in Everyday, Uncategorized.Tags: asperger's, aspie, blog
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This is my permanent blog. I am sick of trying to get it to work on my flipin’ website, so there.
Yeah, o_o
Anyway, I am pondering up an “epic” blog post. I am going to write a blog entry that has true potential to change how some one lives. It won’t be no regular “my day went like this” type of entry. It will be a “LISTEN TO ME” type of entry. It is going to be on the subject that me and a friend were discussing over yahoo instant messenger. I hope to get it done, it will be life changing.
So life changing, it will be like signing up for a sex change.
But I won’t go there.
-Andrew M
Do you know what I hate? September 16, 2007
Posted by Andrew in Rants and Complaints.Tags: homework, vacation, vacations
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Unexpected Vacations.
On my way home from school on Friday, my mom told me we were going up to our condo up in park city and then hang out with Aunt Becky. I thought this was going to be a four – five hour thing, so I went along with the plan. But then the day we we headed up to park city I realized then it was going to be an over night vacation. I love vacations, but they kind of put you behind on school if you have homework. I am back from vacation now trying to get my homework done, while doing my daily rounds on the internet.
I guess there won’t be playing on battle.net today.
We’ll see once midnight comes around
-Andrew M
I’ve been listening to “Melovine” allot lately, more than I ever have since I have watched them grow since the end of 2006. I have been especially enjoying their songs “Bullets Over Stars” and “Blown Away”. And I have got to say, I am digging these guys. I don’t usually listen to bands like this one, but I am still able to enjoy them. They definitely know how to do their job: Rock out